where he is?

before you bella, my life was like a moonless night. very dark but there were stars points of light and reason... and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. suddenly everything was on fire, there was brilliancy, there was beauty. when you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black, nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. i couldn't see the stars anymore and there was no more reason for anything..

stephnie meyer..twlight

where my edward..?? im totally feel like bella in the new moon.. im try to forget what everything happen at the past.. but sometimes its still remains.. but now i have to forget him for maybe a year?? 2 ?? 3?? 10?? or the whole of my life?? i know the day will come as we promise and he promise to my dad too.. but know i still fell loneliness even all my friends around me... mybe jacob character have to appear then my edward will come to me.. huhu..

oh my God i hope everything just a nightmare to me... but i know da reality.. how sick!!